All that I once held as true
I stand alone without beliefs
The only truth I know is you
And as I watch the drops of rain
Weave their weary paths and die
I know that I am like the rain
There but for the grace of you go I
someone violated my sanctuary. so please forgive me for masturbating in a public place. but home isn't home anymore and i've been drinking so much. i'm watching LIT again... perched in my window. like charlotte, but not as pretty. i wish it were raining. and i wish i were cold. and i wish i had a cityscape instead of a courtyard. and i suppose i should consider it a gift that i've not yet lost my ability to wish.
i can forgive him this infraction, i think. because he appears to be truly sorry. he might have even really tried to make it up to me if i had let him. but it'll be about 48 hours before he's found a new infatuation to dedicate himself to. a colder flavor to lick til she melts because she can trust him where i can't. and how do you crack open your chest and give your heart to someone who skitters by in flighty fantasy, pointing out all the pretty colors? "i'd forgive you everything if you'd come back to me," he said. "the story of my broken heart," he said.
but he wasnt talking about me.
so i suppose it's better this way.
River, oh river, river running deep
Bring me something that will let me get to sleep
In the washing of the water will you take it all away
Bring me something to take this pain away
i'm in love with you. and it's just so much better if you never know.